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07-01-2025, 06:09 AM
i think i need to stop saying "more updates soon" and then fuck off for a few months, but i HAVE been doing things. let's talk about it.
we've been doing more SCRIMBLO WORLD shit for second life, that goes without saying. it's work that makes us happy. but, that's slowed down a bit....because more of our main work is back on the table, and i have Things to Share.
getting personal for a second, the past three months have involved some fairly major personal revelations and life decisions that have changed the trajectory of our, well, everything. the good news is, this is a very positive trajectory! but it's been really hard, and one of the decisions made was to cut back on how much of our personal life is in the public eye- at least, in the active moment to moment. it's really clear by now that life as a Content™ Creator™ isn't the move. it's not what we ever really wanted for ourselves, and our life, not this sense of being a Public Figure! we just want to make stuff and share it and talk about it among peers.
growing up autistic and with god knows how much weird bullshit going on neurodivergence-wise left us feeling like we'd have to appeal ourselves to whatever is the "correct" way of sharing art and making friends in order to be accepted, but all this really did was push us into a mold we never really wanted to be in, and then punished whenever we'd naturally leak out of that. i feel like trying to fit to stuff like a Fandom-built Community and Open Species and adoptable culture really fucked me over in that department- and made Morbit/HD works worse for it. part of why i stepped back for such a long while is because i've been unpacking the depths of how much being online and being in the public eye first and a person second has worsened both our trauma and emotional regulation issues, and have been focusing primarily on using distress tolerance to help ease both of those in therapy.
the past 10 years have been very, very hard on us. those who have been following with us personally outside of a community setting know that we went through some pretty serious system shakeups we've referred to as "the implosion". i'll be honest, we still don't know how to address this. we went from like 200 guys to knowing about around 30 active ones, all with pretty huge identity shakeups. it's hard to really talk about this in a way that can convey what this has entailed, and what this feels like, but i guess our overall take is this:
no one you knew before the implosion is dead, or gone. we've had a very large shakeup in system and everybody essentially got broken up into puzzle pieces- and the resulting puzzles are still being put back together. all of them look different, some more than others, but we're still the same background, core interests, and core values- if anything, we're even moreso Ourselves than before. our personal theory is that this was our brain's reaction to getting out of a debilitatingly bad situation and allowed to start things fresh in like, basically every department- consider the new Skinstealer System Version 2 more "true" to what we want to be, especially since we've consciously embraced that.
collectively, we still go by Mortis, and are going to be embracing our TCPsona we made a few years back as a representation of both our irl body and us as a collective. that's a huge change- we're all TCPs by default now! this is something we've needed to really embrace for a very long time, but you can refer to us as TCPs first and foremost as a sort of species descriptor. "human" is okay too, but this will make us very happy. roleplayed physical interactions are still [shaky hand] for us, and affection is still a big no unless you're specifically cleared for it- but we're trying to be more okay with being seen as freaky guys (usually) under a foot tall. feel free to ask about what's cool and what's not.
genderwise, we're pretty firmly nonbinary transmasc across the board. he/him works fine for a singular pronoun, but they/them plural is a great standard one for us. we prefer Mortis if you're referring to us without knowing specific fronters, but if you're up for asking or read our discord status/a notation in a post on who's talking, PLEASE use that! it will make us very happy and help us feel more grounded in being plural, which is something that's been progressively really hard for us in the past 6-7 years.
almost out of the woods on the personal talk.
these big life changes have, again, lead us to realize how much we've been repressing and stifling ourselves. it's been really dogshit to look back at the past decade and realize just how much of our life has been shoving ourselves into a box. so, for the new moves forward- none of that. no more punches pulled. everything from here on out is Us. just purely, purely us. i don't expect this to be everyone's cup of tea- but i hope for those who it is, you really, really like seeing it. it's hard to explain all of the changes at play here, but i think they'll be evident in the work itself soon enough.
as for the less heavy shit, here are things we've been up to that have been helping a lot!
getting back into toy collecting alongside como!
getting back into plushmaking hardcore- including MORBIT PLUSHES!!! i will be posting pictures when the full batch is done, but i took a crack at a private wave of karacel plush commissions, and they're coming out great! i have no idea if i'll open these publicly, but it makes me very happy.
doing more physical self care such as incredible activities like bathing, eating more than one meal a day, and getting more shit diagnosed.
emotional regulation and distress tolerance therapy, as mentioned
talking with friends privately and building up confidence in social groups that arent Public and i am a Figure
playing videogames again
writing and drawing and creating 100% for fun
getting involved with the nature around my apartment, even if it's a lot of looking outside my window and scouring iNaturalist
making cleaning my space into a fun, peaceful activity
shoveling really good media into my mouth at rapid speeds (shoutouts to Severance, Look Outside, and Fool Night especially)
writing memoir shit about my life and making it something i get to divulge at my pace- i actually have a release planned for one of these!
and much more.
and without further ado. project updates.
i'm just gonna run down like. everything.
maze trials is yes, still in the works. i know. me and como have some rewrites to do and i'm going to begin work on illustrations for real now that my shit is together more or less. i'll be figuring out a private stream schedule to start and eventually see if i'm up for public ones, either on twitch or discord with everybody else but team members muted. likely the latter for training wheels.
universal constants- episode 5 is done aside from illustrations, and launches Soon. like, really soon. expect (likely) weekly updates. this one's a bit of a breather after 4, but don't worry- we're getting into shit like:
morbitian political intrigue
more weird kink shit
lots and LOTS of plurality
a hint of gender
maes and charon being really gay
two new characters who have been taken out of the maybequest unused design vault
ghosts?
we're really proud of this one. hope you're ready for shit to get wild from here on out.
plaything- working on getting this going again, no ETA, both twine and forum quest. it's happening and hasn't been forgotten!
second life- yeah we're going strong. i have a pinitelle avatar release planned for august, and that's going great. TCP avatars are also VERY in the works, and the best news is, i have successfully figured out a ReShade style for making ACTUAL prerendered SPRITES VIA SL!!! i am considering using these for assets in the future for all kinds of things, and they may add a significant amount more oomph to ongoing interactive threads/games as well as twines. expression icons, anyone?
kaleidoclub- active development, currently, working on lots of charts and fleshing out characters and their relationships. having some fun stuff go down with making fully fleshed out models of characters to use as aforementioned assets, and shriek is done with the texturing/modeling stage, and comorbid has a basic model/texture set set up that i need to expand. ideally the other toybox members will come more or less easily when shriek's done, and the non-motif shifters should be fairly easy. i just like shriek.
advanced TCPdex- IT IS HAPPENING!!!!!!!! just not showable yet. patrons might see stuff soon though. if you do want to get involved at all, however, the discord now has a new event called BUILD-A-TCP taking place by people voting in polls to build new morbit side characters that can be used for the advanced TCPdex's ongoing narratives and graphics. i may post about them soon here!
the wiki- extreme amounts of behind the scenes work, particularly on species and lore/science fronts. we've got some fantastically crunchy shit in the works for people who like a bit more depth to the morbit shenanigans, and lots of fleshing out that i've always Really wanted to do but never could. the new UC characters show off a lot of nice karacel rework stuff, and i'm looking forward to potentially doing writeups for both of them.
the house- i feel like it needs something. maybe i just need better habits. i might take some time this week to figure this out, we'll see.
commissions and patreon obligations- I AM DRAWING AGAIN! I AM DRAWING! AGAIN! and these are getting picked at. it will take me some time to be okay with doing art for money again- i am processing a lot of trauma regarding this subject that's really needed to be unpacked for over a decade- but i want to reassess my relationship with it.
petz- i'll be honest. i don't really know what to say here that'll be satisfying. i have officially quit the community and am sunsetting my patreon (and it will be paused until i can properly close it), but this shit is still a part of me and my life. i just hate that it is now a part that is both something i long for and am deeply stressed out by, and it may take me a bit to reforge my path with it all.
oneshots- i have been really wanting to do these more! considering i was able to write 2k words out of nowhere the other night- my first solo writing in ages!- i think i can give this a crack. stay tuned for that, i guess. i think it'd be nice.
toymaking- sewing's good, and i'm considering it as an alternate income source considering, uh. the uh. the state of my country. i am a little worried about all that. my plush work has gotten better and better and i think by the end of the year i'll know whether i want to run a public storefront or not and what i would sell, but for now, private commissions and gifts for friends along with piles upon piles of personal plushes work just fine. i've yet to break into toy painting yet, but i'd like to learn!(painting has always been a fucking abysmal medium for me.)
i think i'll do a proper breakdown of what we've been up to soon, and maybe start sharing some patterns- regardless of whether i sell the same designs, i'd like people to be able to make their own too. besides, a lot of my shit is meant to be done on a budget, and god knows we need more shit like that publicly available.
if you'd like to send me some supplies stuff or whatever, the amazon wishlist remains intact and i'm willing to do some small-scale art trade stuff for it if you message me for the wishlist beforehand and are very nice about it. i need more socks. please give me more socks. i really really need a dragon's hoard of socks my OCD hates not having good color combos.
the website- i know. i fucking know. i know i know i know. im not gonna say this is the year i get off my ass and do it. but i do have some ideas, and i'd like to give it a shot now that i dont feel a need to be """"professional""" anymore- just me and my friends who do this as a team. maybe i'll just roll some text out on it over time or something just so that there's more than a landing. that'd be nice.
and whatever else i'm up to. this took a few hours to write and that's what you get.
i will likely be announcing a community event tomorrow, but i wanted to get this out of the way tonight. i'm happy to be back.
-hazard mortis
we've been doing more SCRIMBLO WORLD shit for second life, that goes without saying. it's work that makes us happy. but, that's slowed down a bit....because more of our main work is back on the table, and i have Things to Share.
getting personal for a second, the past three months have involved some fairly major personal revelations and life decisions that have changed the trajectory of our, well, everything. the good news is, this is a very positive trajectory! but it's been really hard, and one of the decisions made was to cut back on how much of our personal life is in the public eye- at least, in the active moment to moment. it's really clear by now that life as a Content™ Creator™ isn't the move. it's not what we ever really wanted for ourselves, and our life, not this sense of being a Public Figure! we just want to make stuff and share it and talk about it among peers.
growing up autistic and with god knows how much weird bullshit going on neurodivergence-wise left us feeling like we'd have to appeal ourselves to whatever is the "correct" way of sharing art and making friends in order to be accepted, but all this really did was push us into a mold we never really wanted to be in, and then punished whenever we'd naturally leak out of that. i feel like trying to fit to stuff like a Fandom-built Community and Open Species and adoptable culture really fucked me over in that department- and made Morbit/HD works worse for it. part of why i stepped back for such a long while is because i've been unpacking the depths of how much being online and being in the public eye first and a person second has worsened both our trauma and emotional regulation issues, and have been focusing primarily on using distress tolerance to help ease both of those in therapy.
the past 10 years have been very, very hard on us. those who have been following with us personally outside of a community setting know that we went through some pretty serious system shakeups we've referred to as "the implosion". i'll be honest, we still don't know how to address this. we went from like 200 guys to knowing about around 30 active ones, all with pretty huge identity shakeups. it's hard to really talk about this in a way that can convey what this has entailed, and what this feels like, but i guess our overall take is this:
no one you knew before the implosion is dead, or gone. we've had a very large shakeup in system and everybody essentially got broken up into puzzle pieces- and the resulting puzzles are still being put back together. all of them look different, some more than others, but we're still the same background, core interests, and core values- if anything, we're even moreso Ourselves than before. our personal theory is that this was our brain's reaction to getting out of a debilitatingly bad situation and allowed to start things fresh in like, basically every department- consider the new Skinstealer System Version 2 more "true" to what we want to be, especially since we've consciously embraced that.
collectively, we still go by Mortis, and are going to be embracing our TCPsona we made a few years back as a representation of both our irl body and us as a collective. that's a huge change- we're all TCPs by default now! this is something we've needed to really embrace for a very long time, but you can refer to us as TCPs first and foremost as a sort of species descriptor. "human" is okay too, but this will make us very happy. roleplayed physical interactions are still [shaky hand] for us, and affection is still a big no unless you're specifically cleared for it- but we're trying to be more okay with being seen as freaky guys (usually) under a foot tall. feel free to ask about what's cool and what's not.
genderwise, we're pretty firmly nonbinary transmasc across the board. he/him works fine for a singular pronoun, but they/them plural is a great standard one for us. we prefer Mortis if you're referring to us without knowing specific fronters, but if you're up for asking or read our discord status/a notation in a post on who's talking, PLEASE use that! it will make us very happy and help us feel more grounded in being plural, which is something that's been progressively really hard for us in the past 6-7 years.
almost out of the woods on the personal talk.
these big life changes have, again, lead us to realize how much we've been repressing and stifling ourselves. it's been really dogshit to look back at the past decade and realize just how much of our life has been shoving ourselves into a box. so, for the new moves forward- none of that. no more punches pulled. everything from here on out is Us. just purely, purely us. i don't expect this to be everyone's cup of tea- but i hope for those who it is, you really, really like seeing it. it's hard to explain all of the changes at play here, but i think they'll be evident in the work itself soon enough.
as for the less heavy shit, here are things we've been up to that have been helping a lot!
getting back into toy collecting alongside como!
getting back into plushmaking hardcore- including MORBIT PLUSHES!!! i will be posting pictures when the full batch is done, but i took a crack at a private wave of karacel plush commissions, and they're coming out great! i have no idea if i'll open these publicly, but it makes me very happy.
doing more physical self care such as incredible activities like bathing, eating more than one meal a day, and getting more shit diagnosed.
emotional regulation and distress tolerance therapy, as mentioned
talking with friends privately and building up confidence in social groups that arent Public and i am a Figure
playing videogames again
writing and drawing and creating 100% for fun
getting involved with the nature around my apartment, even if it's a lot of looking outside my window and scouring iNaturalist
making cleaning my space into a fun, peaceful activity
shoveling really good media into my mouth at rapid speeds (shoutouts to Severance, Look Outside, and Fool Night especially)
writing memoir shit about my life and making it something i get to divulge at my pace- i actually have a release planned for one of these!
and much more.
and without further ado. project updates.
i'm just gonna run down like. everything.
maze trials is yes, still in the works. i know. me and como have some rewrites to do and i'm going to begin work on illustrations for real now that my shit is together more or less. i'll be figuring out a private stream schedule to start and eventually see if i'm up for public ones, either on twitch or discord with everybody else but team members muted. likely the latter for training wheels.
universal constants- episode 5 is done aside from illustrations, and launches Soon. like, really soon. expect (likely) weekly updates. this one's a bit of a breather after 4, but don't worry- we're getting into shit like:
morbitian political intrigue
more weird kink shit
lots and LOTS of plurality
a hint of gender
maes and charon being really gay
two new characters who have been taken out of the maybequest unused design vault
ghosts?
we're really proud of this one. hope you're ready for shit to get wild from here on out.
plaything- working on getting this going again, no ETA, both twine and forum quest. it's happening and hasn't been forgotten!
second life- yeah we're going strong. i have a pinitelle avatar release planned for august, and that's going great. TCP avatars are also VERY in the works, and the best news is, i have successfully figured out a ReShade style for making ACTUAL prerendered SPRITES VIA SL!!! i am considering using these for assets in the future for all kinds of things, and they may add a significant amount more oomph to ongoing interactive threads/games as well as twines. expression icons, anyone?
kaleidoclub- active development, currently, working on lots of charts and fleshing out characters and their relationships. having some fun stuff go down with making fully fleshed out models of characters to use as aforementioned assets, and shriek is done with the texturing/modeling stage, and comorbid has a basic model/texture set set up that i need to expand. ideally the other toybox members will come more or less easily when shriek's done, and the non-motif shifters should be fairly easy. i just like shriek.
advanced TCPdex- IT IS HAPPENING!!!!!!!! just not showable yet. patrons might see stuff soon though. if you do want to get involved at all, however, the discord now has a new event called BUILD-A-TCP taking place by people voting in polls to build new morbit side characters that can be used for the advanced TCPdex's ongoing narratives and graphics. i may post about them soon here!
the wiki- extreme amounts of behind the scenes work, particularly on species and lore/science fronts. we've got some fantastically crunchy shit in the works for people who like a bit more depth to the morbit shenanigans, and lots of fleshing out that i've always Really wanted to do but never could. the new UC characters show off a lot of nice karacel rework stuff, and i'm looking forward to potentially doing writeups for both of them.
the house- i feel like it needs something. maybe i just need better habits. i might take some time this week to figure this out, we'll see.
commissions and patreon obligations- I AM DRAWING AGAIN! I AM DRAWING! AGAIN! and these are getting picked at. it will take me some time to be okay with doing art for money again- i am processing a lot of trauma regarding this subject that's really needed to be unpacked for over a decade- but i want to reassess my relationship with it.
petz- i'll be honest. i don't really know what to say here that'll be satisfying. i have officially quit the community and am sunsetting my patreon (and it will be paused until i can properly close it), but this shit is still a part of me and my life. i just hate that it is now a part that is both something i long for and am deeply stressed out by, and it may take me a bit to reforge my path with it all.
oneshots- i have been really wanting to do these more! considering i was able to write 2k words out of nowhere the other night- my first solo writing in ages!- i think i can give this a crack. stay tuned for that, i guess. i think it'd be nice.
toymaking- sewing's good, and i'm considering it as an alternate income source considering, uh. the uh. the state of my country. i am a little worried about all that. my plush work has gotten better and better and i think by the end of the year i'll know whether i want to run a public storefront or not and what i would sell, but for now, private commissions and gifts for friends along with piles upon piles of personal plushes work just fine. i've yet to break into toy painting yet, but i'd like to learn!(painting has always been a fucking abysmal medium for me.)
i think i'll do a proper breakdown of what we've been up to soon, and maybe start sharing some patterns- regardless of whether i sell the same designs, i'd like people to be able to make their own too. besides, a lot of my shit is meant to be done on a budget, and god knows we need more shit like that publicly available.
if you'd like to send me some supplies stuff or whatever, the amazon wishlist remains intact and i'm willing to do some small-scale art trade stuff for it if you message me for the wishlist beforehand and are very nice about it. i need more socks. please give me more socks. i really really need a dragon's hoard of socks my OCD hates not having good color combos.
the website- i know. i fucking know. i know i know i know. im not gonna say this is the year i get off my ass and do it. but i do have some ideas, and i'd like to give it a shot now that i dont feel a need to be """"professional""" anymore- just me and my friends who do this as a team. maybe i'll just roll some text out on it over time or something just so that there's more than a landing. that'd be nice.
and whatever else i'm up to. this took a few hours to write and that's what you get.
i will likely be announcing a community event tomorrow, but i wanted to get this out of the way tonight. i'm happy to be back.
-hazard mortis
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