01-09-2026, 03:09 PM
Okay.
Taking it slow.
Focus.
Even operating under the assumption that this is probably not real - dream, or something similar -
the best course of action is still to try and Find or at least get in Contact with Salem.
If this is a dream, then it won't matter what you do regardless; no reason not to spend it productively.
And if
somehow
this is
real
then you'll be making sure she's okay.
It's the only choice.
There's a phone by the bed.
You need to get out of the bed.
But
that pain in your leg.
You reach out with your non-IV'd arm and grab the-
You grab the bl-
You're TRYING to grab the blanket.
With a grumble,
you look properly at your new pathetic excuse of a hand.
There are little patterns on it where fingers should go,
but no actual fingers or claws of any kind.
......bullshit.
Feeling a bit like you're maneuvering a puffy, thumbless oven mitt,
you do your best to try and fold your 'hand' any sort of way to manage a grip.
You can bend it ever so slightly, but its rounded surface is making actually Grasping anything next to impossible.
Not to mention, essentially EVERY movement you're making right now is causing a cacophony of little squeaking noises from the inflatable material rubbing against itself.
You sound like a clown failing miserably at balloon art.
You don't even want to HEAR this, much less have it coming FROM YOURSELF.
this dream SUCKS
salem'll get a kick out of it later at least
...actually this might be too embarrassing to tell her-
actually im mostly just really worried about her and this is not helping-
god-
shut up. Focus. focus
With an annoyed huff, you instead try to flick the corner of the blanket off with your leg that isn't hurting like hell,
which takes much more maneuvering and finesse than you were hoping it would.
You eventually succeed, just barely giving yourself a view of 'your' leg.
It's got some sort of adhesive bandages wrapped around it.
They must be extra adhesive, because they look almost like tape.
You don't know what you expected.
Still.
The injury could be real.
You did fall.
You remember falling.
And
even if you're asleep right now,
you don't really want to move an injured leg too much.
fine
no getting up
but im getting that phone.
You do your best to reach for it again,
ignoring the pain in your leg from the motion.
Your stupid, stubby balloon arm can barely even make it half way.
The hospital bed is HUGE, anyway, for whatever reason,
which is definitely making your progress harder.
You pull back with a huff,
and try again,
only for something to spring up into your view, startling you.
You smack it away,
only for it to come right back and smack you gently in the face.
It takes you a few more moments of fighting with it to realize that:
You can feel it.
It's a tail.
Your tail.
You have never had a tail before.
The sensations are alien and overstimulating and
Horrible, you decide.
Not to mention, it's huge.
Bigger than your entire arm.
You do your best to tuck it out of the way,
but it takes prolonged, concentrated effort before you manage to do so.
fuck ME.
fine!
no reaching
what else can i-?
wait
You grab-
You don't grab.
You can't grab.
You loop your arm under the rail of your bed,
then pull up and shove forward as hard as you can.
It doesn't move.
You put your entire body into it,
trying to rock back and forth in order to scoot the bed close to the phone.
You don't even get it to make a noise to signify a force was being applied to it.
But You sure made noise; lots of loud, annoying squeaking.
As usual.
You would tear your frills off,
if you still had them.
With a beleaguered sigh,
you give up for now,
knowing you'll have to press the call button.
Which would be humiliating.
i
i will in a sec
i need to piece this together a bit.
You search your mind,
ignoring this horrible, non-real body for the moment;
instead, trying to remember what happened.
You remember
being on the roof with Salem.
You remember a lot of your conversation with her.
Then, fireworks.
Then,
you both fell - the roof probably caved in.
You remember hanging by your jacket, your favorite jacket - which is noticeably gone, now;
along with any semblance of clothes save for a hospital gown.
Then, another fall.
Breaking through that
weird
container.
Then, you remember
that
thing.
Whatever it was.
How you couldn't move.
The things it said.
that
probably wasnt real.
You ignore it,
trying to push past that.
You
vaguely,
vaguely remember
being
up higher than
a bunch of tables.
There were lights shining in your face.
And people, you think.
A crowd.
Then
nothing else. Waking up in this hospital room.
What about between those two?
After the encounter with that thing,
but before the crowd?
You wrack your brain.
You gasp.
Images appeared.
So quickly you couldn't grasp what they were.
But they felt
off, somehow.
Like seeing something you shouldn't.
They scared you.
probably
just a nightmare, in all the dreams i had
or am still having
not gonna poke at that, then
That's everything.
Reluctantly,
you reach along the side of the bed,
and press the-
You press the-
You PRESS the call button;
only after forcing your useless pool noodle of a limb as hard as you can against the button does it actually press it.
You're panting now.
All these miniature physical challenges are making you exhausted.
You hate that.
It shouldn't be this hard.
You try to settle yourself down.
You have no idea how things'll go with this nurse.
You don't even know if one's going to show up.
It's still a dream.
A few minutes of agonizing worry later,
a knock comes to your room door, and it opens.
A feline - some kind, you don't know - walks in.
"Hey there!
How're you feeling?"
JESUS-
You freeze up.
They must be AT LEAST nine feet tall!
But they came in through the normal-sized doorway; you didn't even see them duck!
HOW D-
its a dream! its a dream.
i know its a dream now
good
And somehow, it feels too real.
Too much detail.
And they're too... present.
Maintaining a smile that's getting more worried due to your lack of response.
"...uhM--"
You freeze again.
Your voice is Many octaves higher AT LEAST.
You sound like you inhaled heliu- ...FUCK OFF!!
"...Are you alright?"
NO
"-Sorry, I'm-
uh..." You pretend to clear your throat.
"Still a little uh... disoriented, but-
Could I get-
Could you hand me the, um... phone?"
You point at the phone.
On the table.
Next to your bed.
They look at you.
Then at your arms.
Humiliation threatens to split your chest open.
Your cheeks are warm, now. You can feel it.
Which means you're probably blushing.
Which is MUCH worse.
"...i-it, um.
Y'know what! I can... probably just get down and get--"
"Nooo, that's okay!
You shouldn't be walking on that leg right now, anyway, from what I'm told."
'from what youre told'?
"But, anyway,
incoming and outgoing patient phonecalls are only available between 8AM and 8PM.
Sorry about that!
I could get the remote for your TV, if you want."
"No, it's just, uh-
I've got someone close to me I need to get in touch with;
she's practically family, and I usually have her as like,
my emergency contact,
so uh..."
You started talking with your hands.
You stop yourself immediately. You don't want to see that.
"Well-
Hospital and all, I'd say this counts as an emergency, right?
So... she should know."
They give you the strangest of looks.
Studying you.
"...you're... wanting company?
I can talk with you, if it'd help."
Their voice becomes just a bit softer, as if they're trying to comfort you.
"...You don't need to make things up just to get someone to talk to."
" . . .
...sorry ?"
You feel uncomfortable.
You feel like you're being treated like a child.
"Oh, I just mean--" "-Nevermind, actually,
I'm uh...
...no phones, anyway, h-haha, so..."
You nod, swallowing.
"Forget I said anything.
...I'm uh. I'm good."
please leave
Another odd look.
"Well, if you're sure.
If you change your mind, just hit that button again, okay?"
"Mhm. Yep."
"I'll get out of your hair, then.
...Oh, I do have this for you."
They retrieve something from a pocket, handing it to you.
Or, they try to.
You can't manage to take it with a hand,
only managing to grasp it by squeezing both hands together, like a jackass.
They smile supportively.
It makes you feel like shit.
It's a pamphlet.
There are balloon dogs on the cover.
not touching that with a ten foot pole
You set it to the side in your bed.
"Thanks. Uh-huh."
"Don't forget to read it, okay?
Your doctor's coming tomorrow - a flexin specialist you got set up with -
and they said over the phone to give you that,
and that you need to read it before tomorrow, if you can."
"...Can I ask wh-
Actually, I-
Yep. Great, I'll take a look at it.
Thanks."
You nod, hoping that's enough.
They put the remote nearby you, next to you on the bed.
"Plenty of rest, okay?
And don't get out of bed until your doctor says it's okay.
Goodnight."
You give a nervous wave and nod as they make their way out.
A sigh of relief, when they're gone.
You pick up the pamphlet,
readying yourself to help it 'accidentally' fall off the side of your bed.
But, you stop yourself.
its
the ONLY
bit of info im getting
and
if i cant contact salem yet
then i owe it to her to at least Try to figure out what the hells happening
You grab-
With BOTH hands,
you grab it and rest it on your lap where you can see it.
HELLO WORLD!
A BRIEF GUIDE TO YOUR NEW LIFE AS A CONSTRUCT
[FLEXIN] EDITION
Provided by the Idyth Construct Support Department
You already want to stop.
But, you don't.
You expect it to be harder to turn the page,
but it clings to your paw easily;
as if the material is specially made for this body.
ugh.
Hello, and welcome to the world!
If you have been given this booklet, then it is very likely that you are a recently spawned flexin!
If this is true, then this booklet will serve as a helpful intro to your new body, and your new species.
please dont call it My 'New Body'
what the fuck is my life that THIS is what im-
just
just read the thing.
like a book. fantasy. not real.
WHAT IS A FLEXIN?
Flexins are a god-created construct species resembling anthropomorphic "balloon dogs".
Like most species, they come in a variety of sizes, morphs, colors, and patterns; no two flexins are exactly the same!
Flexins are usually uncommon, although their rarity can vary from region to region.
uh-huh.
'oh yea theyre Rare!!'
good way to excuse this being a dream, brain.
asshole
FLEXIN SPAWNING
While flexins are proper constructs, they are unique amongst most other construct species in that they are spawned
via special rituals rather than fully put together from spare parts.
why are people doin fuckin Dark Magic to make balloons????
The rituals used to spawn flexins are complex and heavily variable, and often require permits in most regions.
If Idyth is your home region (which is most likely the case if you received this pamphlet), then not only are permits required,
but usually involve some amount of required support (typically access to various support services, as well as one or more
designated support persons to assist the newly spawned flexins). More on this in a later section!
ok idyth is. definitely not where i live
if this were real thatd be
Bad.
like ive heard idyth is OK but also: id be a fucking Ocean away from salem
its a dream. whatever
Although the control of flexin spawning is often enforced by regional laws, it is possible for flexins to be
illegally spawned without a permit.
'how Dare you make that balloon with dark magic. Youre Under Arrest'
FLEXIN BODIES
Flexin bodies consist mainly of two components: the outer shell and an internal substance, which is usually comprised
of air but can sometimes be a liquid. Air within a flexin can be of different densities and makeup, leading to
varying weight and other minor differences.
Liquid is the same way, though usually has less variation to it. Other internal and external differences often come
from a specific flexin's morph, and can lead to more complicated internals.
Understanding your own body-
i said dont do that, brain
Understanding your own body can be important, so make sure to check in with a specialist if you have questions.
ill be sure to hit up my designated balloon expert. thank u
You flip the page.
The motion almost feels natural this time.
HAND DEXTERITY
Flexin paws may not look like much, but they can actually be just as capable as the hands of any other species!
bullshit.
Your paws do function differently, however.
The easiest way to think about it is that there is a "phantom hand" residing within each of your paws which
performs more complex motions such as typing or picking up objects. It is a part of your paw, but can move
somewhat separately, allowing for greater dexterity.
You can move these "phantom hands" just the same way as any non-flexin would use their own limbs, but
you'll be operating them without being able to see or even entirely feel them.
You blink.
You look at your hand
paw
thing.
You try to grab the blanket.
You FOCUS
and try to grab the blanket.
You FOCUS
HARDER
and try to grab the blanket.
You can't.
You feel bad.
ok.
whatever
While this may take some getting used to, it can usually be picked up (no pun intended!) quickly with practice. dick.
In the meantime, don't be afraid to ask for help!
ill get right on that yea
If you're struggling, consult a specialist or another trusted flexin for help. Avoid attempting to forcibly
bend your paws to grab or maneuver things, as this can put unnecessary strain on your shell and weaken
it where the bends happen.
too late
...god this next section- YOUR TAIL & YOU
As a flexin, you almost certainly have a tail!
While you can't move your tail all that much, it may move on its own, such as wagging when you're excited.
that BETTER not FUCKIN happen.
this is humiliating ENOUGH as it is.
This is nothing to be embarrassed about- oh shut up -and is in fact normal for many species; even
constructs can have tails!
Something to keep in mind, however, is that your tail is likely to be fairly large compared to your body.
This is entirely fine! ITS REALLY NOT
But, a big tail is a big responsibility. Make sure to be mindful of where it is, especially when turning or moving through a
doorway; it may be easier than you expect to accidentally knock something over, or puncture your tail by shutting
a door on it. This isn't exclusive to your tail - it's important to be mindful of all parts of your body - but it is a
surprisingly common issue!
So make sure to be careful! (More info on injuries in a later section).
injuries?
.....could be uh.
coded message from my brain, or
something
might find more there.
...ill get there.
gotta be thorough
You flip the page without a second thought.
SUSTENANCE & UPKEEP
Most robotic constructs require a power source, often from electrical outlets. Most organic species require food and oxygen.
me. im organic species. thats me
Flexins, meanwhile, require none of these things! boo
wait
what?
how?
wait i HAVE been breathing, too, what does it mean i dont 'need oxygen'???
how would-
Instead, flexins sustain themselves purely off of social interaction - or, more accurately,
flexins filter shreds produced by others through the membrane of their shell.
You stop reading.
You reread that.
Instead, flexins sustain themselves purely off of social interaction
Instead,
flexins sustain themselves purely off of social interaction
i-
ok but.
that-
that cant be Right tho, like-
HOW would that even-
ok theres-
calm down. calm down, calm down.
theres gotta be an alternative.
there is.
...and thisisntreal yadda yadda. keep reading.
It is VERY important for your health to maintain a consistent amount of individuals and groups to
socialize with; your wellbeing depends on it! Shreds and sleeping are typically the only physiological
needs flexins have, making your own upkeep a breeze! No complicated maintenance required.
As with any species, it's also important to upkeep your hygiene, and check in with a primary care
doctor on occasion, especially for injuries. And, although you don't need to eat, it's important to have
shelter, ideally with some sort of permanent housing.
And remember that your mental and emotional health is also very important. Don't be afraid to
schedule an appointment with a therapist if you're having trouble!
CLOTHING- no. no next section, wheres-
Where
Where is the part where theres an Alternative
like, i CANT-
i-
mayb e
maybe theres like
maybe its a later
a later
section.
yea
its.
not real anyway.
ill be Fine.
keep reading
CLOTHING
While technically optional for flexins, most individuals tend to prefer and enjoy wearing clothes.
Ideal clothing should be light, loose, and nonrestrictive.
Constrictive clothing could stretch or bend your shell, which could result in weakening or even
injury, and can also inhibit movement if your clothing is in the way. As a flexin, you're most
likely to be very light, and heavy clothing can weigh you down significantly.
This is why light, loose clothing with some amount of thickness (to help add a small extra
layer of protection) is best. Flexin bodytypes may also be a little more difficult to find clothes
for, so be sure to shop around for something that's comfortable!
You are too anxious to think of jokes.
You try stimming with your foot.
It hurts badly.
You use the other one instead.
You flip the page.
SAFETY: PUNCTURES
While your body may be more flexible and durable than a typical non-living balloon, it can still be easily
damaged, and injuries are more severe for flexins than other species.
It is VERY IMPORTANT to avoid sharp objects, avoid any sharp corners of walls and furniture, and avoid
uneven or unstable walking surfaces such as sharp rocks that could cause a puncture, or a wet floor
which could cause a fall. Your shell is quite stretchy, but remember to avoid heavy stretching or bending
of your shell, as this can make the material less durable or potentially even cause it to rip with severe strain.
ANY rip or puncture of ANY kind can be a severe injury, as they cause you to leak or "bleed"
your internal air (or liquid), with larger tears resulting in a faster rate of leaking.
"Bleeding out" in this way can eventually result in LOSS OF MOBILITY and eventually DEATH if left
untreated, no matter how small, so avoid injuries at all costs. Thankfully, you can purchase adhesive medical
patches and bandages, which should ideally be kept on your person at all times in case of an emergency. In
a pinch, other adhesives such as heavy duty tape can be temporarily used, though this is not recommended
except as a last resort. DO NOT USE GLUE.
If the puncture is small, then a medical patch is likely enough, while larger punctures will likely require
medical attention even after being patched up. Regardless, patching or at least closing up the puncture as
best as you're able should always be your FIRST priority before seeking further medical help.
mmmm
SAFETY: WEATHER & LOCATION
Your body is more vulnerable to heat and cold than some other species, so it's important to be
mindful of your environment.
Heat can cause your internal air to expand, which can stretch and weaken your shell or even
cause ruptures in particularly high heat. For liquid internals, heat can be even more dangerous,
as boiling liquid could potentially melt your shell. As such, avoid high heat as much as possible.
During hot weather, make sure to stay inside and stay cool any way you can. It is best not to
go outside during particularly hot weather. Be particularly careful around ovens, heaters, engines,
and other sources of heat.
Very cold conditions can cause deflation, sluggishness, and gradual complications with mobility.
For liquid internals, cold is extremely dangerous, as freezing internal liquid could cause shell
rupture and even death. Just like with heat, avoid cold as much as possible. During cold weather,
stay inside and keep warm (though, be safe around any sort of heater!). If you have to go outside
in the cold, bundle up well to stay warm.
Along with temperature, high winds can also be a problem, especially for those with lighter internal
air. High wind can make moving outside impossible, and can quickly result in injury from being
buffeted against objects, sharp or otherwise. HIGH WIND CAN BE DEADLY FOR FLEXINS!
Likewise, avoid large bodies water, as flexins usually cannot swim, lacking any sort of mobility on
the water. Flexins with air will almost always float atop the surface, with very little way to move or
even get up once atop a body of water, which can very quickly lead to being stranded.
For liquid flexins, depending on the density of their internal liquid, they are very likely to either float
slightly (which brings up previous issues to a potentially lesser degree) or sink entirely (which could
make it incredibly difficult to resurface again).
mmmmmmmmMMMMMmmmm ok so dont be around sharp things or furniture
or heat or cold and dont be around water and also wind will kill you too
everything will kill you
and you have to talk to people
all the time.
. . .
am i going to die?
this is a dream or something, i know, but like-
im-
im just going to fucking Die, right?
...might
be an easy way to
wake up
Your eyes glance over
to your IV.
And to your leg.
. . .
Fear wells up in your gut.
n
no. no. no i dont. want to
im
i know. i know it HAS to be a dream but
its
i dont
want to take that
risk
i cant.
i Cant
. . .
im really
sorry, salem.
if im just
on the floor of that warehouse, passed out
and youre bleeding out
and i cant help because im too Scared to just
pop a stupid balloon.
i
cant.
i cant do it
You're breathing a little heavier.
You're worried.
You miss her.
fuck. fucking
get it TOGETHER.
i dont even Know that she fell.
there mightve not even been a fall
or maybe shes in a hospital with me, somewhere.
wherever we are
i just want to
KNOW
already
i dont wanna do whatever
THIS
Bullshit is, just
on my own
god
just.
keep reading.
you probably Literally cant cry right now, anyway
stupid. stupid
You force yourself to turn the page.
MEDICATIONS
As flexins cannot ingest anything, they are most often reliant on topical solutions
for medications as well as the occasional inhalant medications that utilize flexins'
shred-permeable membranes.
In more serious circumstances, for heavier medications that need to be delivered
quickly, some medicated patches may have a tiny puncture point to administer
medication through, though these are more rare.
In a hospital setting, pump system IVs may be utilized to deliver medications or
to help refill a flexin's air, using similar techniques.
COMMUNITY & SOCIALIZATION
It is vital for your mental and physical wellbeing to establish a support network;
one ideally consisting of friends, roommates, communities, and potentially
support persons, if you have access to them.
i dont want to read this
Luckily, flexins tend to gather around each other in various communities, and are also
often popular among non-flexins, as well, allowing for plentiful opportunities to socialize.
It is also entirely encouraged to seek out groups such as meetups, clubs, and other
social gatherings, and/or frequent different social spaces such as bars. Having regular
places and events to go to can help tremendously, and if you're socializing, you're likely
to pick up some regular friends along the way!
no i am not. from experience
Regardless of the method, in-person contact is required to filter in shreds from
others, so while communicating with phonecalls, texts, and online messaging is
entirely fine, you MUST very regularly socialize with others physically around you
in order to stay healthy.
so
the Only kind of socializing i can Sort Of fuckin Do
is
Not Allowed. it wont work. ill die.
great
Failure to regularly socialize can result in deteriorating mental and
physical health, and can eventually lead to death in extreme cases.
Staying around others is a REQUIREMENT for your own health.
Be safe, stick together! with who, asshole
i dont even know if shes Alive.
IDENTITY
Identity can be a confusing subject for flexins, as they almost always spawn
in with some amount of inherited knowledge (and even memories) from those
that performed their spawning ritual. If you're lucky, you may end up around
some of those individuals to help explain and orient some of what you've inherited.
But if you don't have contact with them, that's alright!
It is, however, very important to form your own identity; separate from the push
and pull of all the thoughts and feelings you spawned with. It's okay to hold onto
some of it - you may find yourself with intricate knowledge on how to golf, for
instance, and may decide this is something you do enjoy once you've tried it - but
it's important to pick what YOU like, and how YOU want to define yourself, rather
than entirely latching onto someone else's identity.
Forming your own perceptions of yourself will come with time, the more you make
your own decisions and have your own feelings. Embrace being who you are,
whoever that might be!
. . .
. . .
im me.
and this
isnt real
anyway.
Your head hurts.
You turn the page.
ACTIVITIES & CAREERS
It's important to participate in activities and jobs that suit You!
im disabled.
i havent worked a job in years.
Activities/jobs that often handle sharp objects, high heat, or cold -
such as cooking, which frequently deals with all three - are likely not
a great fit; though not impossible, with the right precautions.
Likewise, any rough or dangerous activities/jobs, or ones that require
a large amount of strength - such as construction or warehouse work
- is also unlikely to be for you.
i Did work warehouse once
it wasnt that bad
i miss it now
Even more importantly, solitary activities, and especially solitary
jobs - such as being a park ranger, or hiking a mountain alone - are not
activities/jobs you should take on unless constantly accompanied by others.
On the other side, though, activities/jobs that are safe, not too physically
demanding, and involve a lot of in-person socializing - such as entertaining
or cashier work - are often perfect for flexins!
...so
the kinds of jobs that gave me breakdowns, would-
o.k. ok.
ok.
Once you're comfortable with using your paws, activities that
require more dexterity - such as painting or using a computer - are
also available to you, greatly expanding your possibilities.
need to get on that ASAP then
Ultimately, while there may be some limitations to being a
flexin (as there are with any species), there is plenty
available for you to do.
The most important part is finding something that fits
your body as well as You.
my Body doesnt fit Me.
THE PERCEPTIONS OF OTHERS
As a flexin, you WILL be socializing with others very,
very frequently. wanna bet? As such, you are,
of course, likely to run into others' perceptions,
assumptions, and misconceptions about you, as a flexin.
While flexins are most often seen in a positive light
(often described by others with words such as
entertaining, cute, i have literally never been cute in my life.
i still am not. funny and mysterious, according
to recent social studies within Idyth), there can
unfortunately be negatives, as well.
Some individuals may think of flexins as potentially easy
to take advantage of (often for their popularity), or even
"weak" or easy to "push around", given flexins' smaller
size and physical difficulties compared to many other species.
. . .
...smaller?
the nurse.
the bed.
You look at the door again.
oh
god
You're afraid to keep reading.
Even when seen positively, this isn't always a good thing,
as some others may see flexins more akin to toys than people,
or could experience positive feelings that lean more towards
exoticizing flexins rather than treating them as equals.
In times such as this, be sure of yourself and lean on a supportive
community or friend for help. Ideally, disengage with and avoid
the individual who is mistreating you.
While it is unlikely, if you feel physically threatened, find someone
you trust or notify the authorities. DO NOT try to physically engage
with an attacker more than using non-dangerous defensive items
such as mace ("pepper spray") or similar as a deterrent to get away.
it just
keeps getting. worse
It may be helpful to keep something like this on your person
in case of emergency, but they are very rarely necessary as
physical violence towards flexins is rare.
No matter what, this is unlikely to be your experience, and
you're much more likely to form strong bonds with others
through community and friendship.
no according to This im going to die
its. a dream
who cares anymore.
SUPPORT
Community and personal support is invaluable,
of course, but if you need more help, it's
always available.
If you're local to Idyth, check if there's an ICSD
branch near you!
Otherwise, you can always visit our website or
call our toll-free number for tips, resources, and
info on our community programs.
You close the pamphlet.
You slide it off the bed onto the floor.
Dread rests squarely in the throat you don't have.
But more than anything,
you're just exhausted.
You nudge the remote with your arm.
You squeak.
Part of you wants to laugh.
You can't even take Yourself seriously.
What's the point, when you're stuck like this?
oh well
You try to think of what to do with yourself, now.
It seems like the TV really is the only option.
But you'd have to decide what to even watch.
Wouldn't it just be garbled nonsense, in a dream, anyway?
You're scared to check.
You could also just go to bed.
Or
try to get up.
Maybe even
try to get out of here.
Would you even make it, with your leg?
But you don't want to just lay here
and do Nothing.
Taking it slow.
Focus.
Even operating under the assumption that this is probably not real - dream, or something similar -
the best course of action is still to try and Find or at least get in Contact with Salem.
If this is a dream, then it won't matter what you do regardless; no reason not to spend it productively.
And if
somehow
this is
real
then you'll be making sure she's okay.
It's the only choice.
There's a phone by the bed.
You need to get out of the bed.
But
that pain in your leg.
You reach out with your non-IV'd arm and grab the-
You grab the bl-
You're TRYING to grab the blanket.
With a grumble,
you look properly at your new pathetic excuse of a hand.
There are little patterns on it where fingers should go,
but no actual fingers or claws of any kind.
......bullshit.
Feeling a bit like you're maneuvering a puffy, thumbless oven mitt,
you do your best to try and fold your 'hand' any sort of way to manage a grip.
You can bend it ever so slightly, but its rounded surface is making actually Grasping anything next to impossible.
Not to mention, essentially EVERY movement you're making right now is causing a cacophony of little squeaking noises from the inflatable material rubbing against itself.
You sound like a clown failing miserably at balloon art.
You don't even want to HEAR this, much less have it coming FROM YOURSELF.
this dream SUCKS
salem'll get a kick out of it later at least
...actually this might be too embarrassing to tell her-
actually im mostly just really worried about her and this is not helping-
god-
shut up. Focus. focus
With an annoyed huff, you instead try to flick the corner of the blanket off with your leg that isn't hurting like hell,
which takes much more maneuvering and finesse than you were hoping it would.
You eventually succeed, just barely giving yourself a view of 'your' leg.
It's got some sort of adhesive bandages wrapped around it.
They must be extra adhesive, because they look almost like tape.
You don't know what you expected.
Still.
The injury could be real.
You did fall.
You remember falling.
And
even if you're asleep right now,
you don't really want to move an injured leg too much.
fine
no getting up
but im getting that phone.
You do your best to reach for it again,
ignoring the pain in your leg from the motion.
Your stupid, stubby balloon arm can barely even make it half way.
The hospital bed is HUGE, anyway, for whatever reason,
which is definitely making your progress harder.
You pull back with a huff,
and try again,
only for something to spring up into your view, startling you.
You smack it away,
only for it to come right back and smack you gently in the face.
It takes you a few more moments of fighting with it to realize that:
You can feel it.
It's a tail.
Your tail.
You have never had a tail before.
The sensations are alien and overstimulating and
Horrible, you decide.
Not to mention, it's huge.
Bigger than your entire arm.
You do your best to tuck it out of the way,
but it takes prolonged, concentrated effort before you manage to do so.
fuck ME.
fine!
no reaching
what else can i-?
wait
You grab-
You don't grab.
You can't grab.
You loop your arm under the rail of your bed,
then pull up and shove forward as hard as you can.
It doesn't move.
You put your entire body into it,
trying to rock back and forth in order to scoot the bed close to the phone.
You don't even get it to make a noise to signify a force was being applied to it.
But You sure made noise; lots of loud, annoying squeaking.
As usual.
You would tear your frills off,
if you still had them.
With a beleaguered sigh,
you give up for now,
knowing you'll have to press the call button.
Which would be humiliating.
i
i will in a sec
i need to piece this together a bit.
You search your mind,
ignoring this horrible, non-real body for the moment;
instead, trying to remember what happened.
You remember
being on the roof with Salem.
You remember a lot of your conversation with her.
Then, fireworks.
Then,
you both fell - the roof probably caved in.
You remember hanging by your jacket, your favorite jacket - which is noticeably gone, now;
along with any semblance of clothes save for a hospital gown.
Then, another fall.
Breaking through that
weird
container.
Then, you remember
that
thing.
Whatever it was.
How you couldn't move.
The things it said.
that
probably wasnt real.
You ignore it,
trying to push past that.
You
vaguely,
vaguely remember
being
up higher than
a bunch of tables.
There were lights shining in your face.
And people, you think.
A crowd.
Then
nothing else. Waking up in this hospital room.
What about between those two?
After the encounter with that thing,
but before the crowd?
You wrack your brain.
You gasp.
Images appeared.
So quickly you couldn't grasp what they were.
But they felt
off, somehow.
Like seeing something you shouldn't.
They scared you.
probably
just a nightmare, in all the dreams i had
or am still having
not gonna poke at that, then
That's everything.
Reluctantly,
you reach along the side of the bed,
and press the-
You press the-
You PRESS the call button;
only after forcing your useless pool noodle of a limb as hard as you can against the button does it actually press it.
You're panting now.
All these miniature physical challenges are making you exhausted.
You hate that.
It shouldn't be this hard.
You try to settle yourself down.
You have no idea how things'll go with this nurse.
You don't even know if one's going to show up.
It's still a dream.
A few minutes of agonizing worry later,
a knock comes to your room door, and it opens.
A feline - some kind, you don't know - walks in.
"Hey there!
How're you feeling?"
JESUS-
You freeze up.
They must be AT LEAST nine feet tall!
But they came in through the normal-sized doorway; you didn't even see them duck!
HOW D-
its a dream! its a dream.
i know its a dream now
good
And somehow, it feels too real.
Too much detail.
And they're too... present.
Maintaining a smile that's getting more worried due to your lack of response.
"...uhM--"
You freeze again.
Your voice is Many octaves higher AT LEAST.
You sound like you inhaled heliu- ...FUCK OFF!!
"...Are you alright?"
NO
"-Sorry, I'm-
uh..." You pretend to clear your throat.
"Still a little uh... disoriented, but-
Could I get-
Could you hand me the, um... phone?"
You point at the phone.
On the table.
Next to your bed.
They look at you.
Then at your arms.
Humiliation threatens to split your chest open.
Your cheeks are warm, now. You can feel it.
Which means you're probably blushing.
Which is MUCH worse.
"...i-it, um.
Y'know what! I can... probably just get down and get--"
"Nooo, that's okay!
You shouldn't be walking on that leg right now, anyway, from what I'm told."
'from what youre told'?
"But, anyway,
incoming and outgoing patient phonecalls are only available between 8AM and 8PM.
Sorry about that!
I could get the remote for your TV, if you want."
"No, it's just, uh-
I've got someone close to me I need to get in touch with;
she's practically family, and I usually have her as like,
my emergency contact,
so uh..."
You started talking with your hands.
You stop yourself immediately. You don't want to see that.
"Well-
Hospital and all, I'd say this counts as an emergency, right?
So... she should know."
They give you the strangest of looks.
Studying you.
"...you're... wanting company?
I can talk with you, if it'd help."
Their voice becomes just a bit softer, as if they're trying to comfort you.
"...You don't need to make things up just to get someone to talk to."
" . . .
...sorry ?"
You feel uncomfortable.
You feel like you're being treated like a child.
"Oh, I just mean--" "-Nevermind, actually,
I'm uh...
...no phones, anyway, h-haha, so..."
You nod, swallowing.
"Forget I said anything.
...I'm uh. I'm good."
please leave
Another odd look.
"Well, if you're sure.
If you change your mind, just hit that button again, okay?"
"Mhm. Yep."
"I'll get out of your hair, then.
...Oh, I do have this for you."
They retrieve something from a pocket, handing it to you.
Or, they try to.
You can't manage to take it with a hand,
only managing to grasp it by squeezing both hands together, like a jackass.
They smile supportively.
It makes you feel like shit.
It's a pamphlet.
There are balloon dogs on the cover.
not touching that with a ten foot pole
You set it to the side in your bed.
"Thanks. Uh-huh."
"Don't forget to read it, okay?
Your doctor's coming tomorrow - a flexin specialist you got set up with -
and they said over the phone to give you that,
and that you need to read it before tomorrow, if you can."
"...Can I ask wh-
Actually, I-
Yep. Great, I'll take a look at it.
Thanks."
You nod, hoping that's enough.
They put the remote nearby you, next to you on the bed.
"Plenty of rest, okay?
And don't get out of bed until your doctor says it's okay.
Goodnight."
You give a nervous wave and nod as they make their way out.
A sigh of relief, when they're gone.
You pick up the pamphlet,
readying yourself to help it 'accidentally' fall off the side of your bed.
But, you stop yourself.
its
the ONLY
bit of info im getting
and
if i cant contact salem yet
then i owe it to her to at least Try to figure out what the hells happening
You grab-
With BOTH hands,
you grab it and rest it on your lap where you can see it.
HELLO WORLD!
A BRIEF GUIDE TO YOUR NEW LIFE AS A CONSTRUCT
[FLEXIN] EDITION
Provided by the Idyth Construct Support Department
You already want to stop.
But, you don't.
You expect it to be harder to turn the page,
but it clings to your paw easily;
as if the material is specially made for this body.
ugh.
Hello, and welcome to the world!
If you have been given this booklet, then it is very likely that you are a recently spawned flexin!
If this is true, then this booklet will serve as a helpful intro to your new body, and your new species.
please dont call it My 'New Body'
what the fuck is my life that THIS is what im-
just
just read the thing.
like a book. fantasy. not real.
WHAT IS A FLEXIN?
Flexins are a god-created construct species resembling anthropomorphic "balloon dogs".
Like most species, they come in a variety of sizes, morphs, colors, and patterns; no two flexins are exactly the same!
Flexins are usually uncommon, although their rarity can vary from region to region.
uh-huh.
'oh yea theyre Rare!!'
good way to excuse this being a dream, brain.
asshole
FLEXIN SPAWNING
While flexins are proper constructs, they are unique amongst most other construct species in that they are spawned
via special rituals rather than fully put together from spare parts.
why are people doin fuckin Dark Magic to make balloons????
The rituals used to spawn flexins are complex and heavily variable, and often require permits in most regions.
If Idyth is your home region (which is most likely the case if you received this pamphlet), then not only are permits required,
but usually involve some amount of required support (typically access to various support services, as well as one or more
designated support persons to assist the newly spawned flexins). More on this in a later section!
ok idyth is. definitely not where i live
if this were real thatd be
Bad.
like ive heard idyth is OK but also: id be a fucking Ocean away from salem
its a dream. whatever
Although the control of flexin spawning is often enforced by regional laws, it is possible for flexins to be
illegally spawned without a permit.
'how Dare you make that balloon with dark magic. Youre Under Arrest'
FLEXIN BODIES
Flexin bodies consist mainly of two components: the outer shell and an internal substance, which is usually comprised
of air but can sometimes be a liquid. Air within a flexin can be of different densities and makeup, leading to
varying weight and other minor differences.
Liquid is the same way, though usually has less variation to it. Other internal and external differences often come
from a specific flexin's morph, and can lead to more complicated internals.
Understanding your own body-
i said dont do that, brain
Understanding your own body can be important, so make sure to check in with a specialist if you have questions.
ill be sure to hit up my designated balloon expert. thank u
You flip the page.
The motion almost feels natural this time.
HAND DEXTERITY
Flexin paws may not look like much, but they can actually be just as capable as the hands of any other species!
bullshit.
Your paws do function differently, however.
The easiest way to think about it is that there is a "phantom hand" residing within each of your paws which
performs more complex motions such as typing or picking up objects. It is a part of your paw, but can move
somewhat separately, allowing for greater dexterity.
You can move these "phantom hands" just the same way as any non-flexin would use their own limbs, but
you'll be operating them without being able to see or even entirely feel them.
You blink.
You look at your hand
paw
thing.
You try to grab the blanket.
You FOCUS
and try to grab the blanket.
You FOCUS
HARDER
and try to grab the blanket.
You can't.
You feel bad.
ok.
whatever
While this may take some getting used to, it can usually be picked up (no pun intended!) quickly with practice. dick.
In the meantime, don't be afraid to ask for help!
ill get right on that yea
If you're struggling, consult a specialist or another trusted flexin for help. Avoid attempting to forcibly
bend your paws to grab or maneuver things, as this can put unnecessary strain on your shell and weaken
it where the bends happen.
too late
...god this next section- YOUR TAIL & YOU
As a flexin, you almost certainly have a tail!
While you can't move your tail all that much, it may move on its own, such as wagging when you're excited.
that BETTER not FUCKIN happen.
this is humiliating ENOUGH as it is.
This is nothing to be embarrassed about- oh shut up -and is in fact normal for many species; even
constructs can have tails!
Something to keep in mind, however, is that your tail is likely to be fairly large compared to your body.
This is entirely fine! ITS REALLY NOT
But, a big tail is a big responsibility. Make sure to be mindful of where it is, especially when turning or moving through a
doorway; it may be easier than you expect to accidentally knock something over, or puncture your tail by shutting
a door on it. This isn't exclusive to your tail - it's important to be mindful of all parts of your body - but it is a
surprisingly common issue!
So make sure to be careful! (More info on injuries in a later section).
injuries?
.....could be uh.
coded message from my brain, or
something
might find more there.
...ill get there.
gotta be thorough
You flip the page without a second thought.
SUSTENANCE & UPKEEP
Most robotic constructs require a power source, often from electrical outlets. Most organic species require food and oxygen.
me. im organic species. thats me
Flexins, meanwhile, require none of these things! boo
wait
what?
how?
wait i HAVE been breathing, too, what does it mean i dont 'need oxygen'???
how would-
Instead, flexins sustain themselves purely off of social interaction - or, more accurately,
flexins filter shreds produced by others through the membrane of their shell.
You stop reading.
You reread that.
Instead, flexins sustain themselves purely off of social interaction
Instead,
flexins sustain themselves purely off of social interaction
i-
ok but.
that-
that cant be Right tho, like-
HOW would that even-
ok theres-
calm down. calm down, calm down.
theres gotta be an alternative.
there is.
...and thisisntreal yadda yadda. keep reading.
It is VERY important for your health to maintain a consistent amount of individuals and groups to
socialize with; your wellbeing depends on it! Shreds and sleeping are typically the only physiological
needs flexins have, making your own upkeep a breeze! No complicated maintenance required.
As with any species, it's also important to upkeep your hygiene, and check in with a primary care
doctor on occasion, especially for injuries. And, although you don't need to eat, it's important to have
shelter, ideally with some sort of permanent housing.
And remember that your mental and emotional health is also very important. Don't be afraid to
schedule an appointment with a therapist if you're having trouble!
CLOTHING- no. no next section, wheres-
Where
Where is the part where theres an Alternative
like, i CANT-
i-
mayb e
maybe theres like
maybe its a later
a later
section.
yea
its.
not real anyway.
ill be Fine.
keep reading
CLOTHING
While technically optional for flexins, most individuals tend to prefer and enjoy wearing clothes.
Ideal clothing should be light, loose, and nonrestrictive.
Constrictive clothing could stretch or bend your shell, which could result in weakening or even
injury, and can also inhibit movement if your clothing is in the way. As a flexin, you're most
likely to be very light, and heavy clothing can weigh you down significantly.
This is why light, loose clothing with some amount of thickness (to help add a small extra
layer of protection) is best. Flexin bodytypes may also be a little more difficult to find clothes
for, so be sure to shop around for something that's comfortable!
You are too anxious to think of jokes.
You try stimming with your foot.
It hurts badly.
You use the other one instead.
You flip the page.
SAFETY: PUNCTURES
While your body may be more flexible and durable than a typical non-living balloon, it can still be easily
damaged, and injuries are more severe for flexins than other species.
It is VERY IMPORTANT to avoid sharp objects, avoid any sharp corners of walls and furniture, and avoid
uneven or unstable walking surfaces such as sharp rocks that could cause a puncture, or a wet floor
which could cause a fall. Your shell is quite stretchy, but remember to avoid heavy stretching or bending
of your shell, as this can make the material less durable or potentially even cause it to rip with severe strain.
ANY rip or puncture of ANY kind can be a severe injury, as they cause you to leak or "bleed"
your internal air (or liquid), with larger tears resulting in a faster rate of leaking.
"Bleeding out" in this way can eventually result in LOSS OF MOBILITY and eventually DEATH if left
untreated, no matter how small, so avoid injuries at all costs. Thankfully, you can purchase adhesive medical
patches and bandages, which should ideally be kept on your person at all times in case of an emergency. In
a pinch, other adhesives such as heavy duty tape can be temporarily used, though this is not recommended
except as a last resort. DO NOT USE GLUE.
If the puncture is small, then a medical patch is likely enough, while larger punctures will likely require
medical attention even after being patched up. Regardless, patching or at least closing up the puncture as
best as you're able should always be your FIRST priority before seeking further medical help.
mmmm
SAFETY: WEATHER & LOCATION
Your body is more vulnerable to heat and cold than some other species, so it's important to be
mindful of your environment.
Heat can cause your internal air to expand, which can stretch and weaken your shell or even
cause ruptures in particularly high heat. For liquid internals, heat can be even more dangerous,
as boiling liquid could potentially melt your shell. As such, avoid high heat as much as possible.
During hot weather, make sure to stay inside and stay cool any way you can. It is best not to
go outside during particularly hot weather. Be particularly careful around ovens, heaters, engines,
and other sources of heat.
Very cold conditions can cause deflation, sluggishness, and gradual complications with mobility.
For liquid internals, cold is extremely dangerous, as freezing internal liquid could cause shell
rupture and even death. Just like with heat, avoid cold as much as possible. During cold weather,
stay inside and keep warm (though, be safe around any sort of heater!). If you have to go outside
in the cold, bundle up well to stay warm.
Along with temperature, high winds can also be a problem, especially for those with lighter internal
air. High wind can make moving outside impossible, and can quickly result in injury from being
buffeted against objects, sharp or otherwise. HIGH WIND CAN BE DEADLY FOR FLEXINS!
Likewise, avoid large bodies water, as flexins usually cannot swim, lacking any sort of mobility on
the water. Flexins with air will almost always float atop the surface, with very little way to move or
even get up once atop a body of water, which can very quickly lead to being stranded.
For liquid flexins, depending on the density of their internal liquid, they are very likely to either float
slightly (which brings up previous issues to a potentially lesser degree) or sink entirely (which could
make it incredibly difficult to resurface again).
mmmmmmmmMMMMMmmmm ok so dont be around sharp things or furniture
or heat or cold and dont be around water and also wind will kill you too
everything will kill you
and you have to talk to people
all the time.
. . .
am i going to die?
this is a dream or something, i know, but like-
im-
im just going to fucking Die, right?
...might
be an easy way to
wake up
Your eyes glance over
to your IV.
And to your leg.
. . .
Fear wells up in your gut.
n
no. no. no i dont. want to
im
i know. i know it HAS to be a dream but
its
i dont
want to take that
risk
i cant.
i Cant
. . .
im really
sorry, salem.
if im just
on the floor of that warehouse, passed out
and youre bleeding out
and i cant help because im too Scared to just
pop a stupid balloon.
i
cant.
i cant do it
You're breathing a little heavier.
You're worried.
You miss her.
fuck. fucking
get it TOGETHER.
i dont even Know that she fell.
there mightve not even been a fall
or maybe shes in a hospital with me, somewhere.
wherever we are
i just want to
KNOW
already
i dont wanna do whatever
THIS
Bullshit is, just
on my own
god
just.
keep reading.
you probably Literally cant cry right now, anyway
stupid. stupid
You force yourself to turn the page.
MEDICATIONS
As flexins cannot ingest anything, they are most often reliant on topical solutions
for medications as well as the occasional inhalant medications that utilize flexins'
shred-permeable membranes.
In more serious circumstances, for heavier medications that need to be delivered
quickly, some medicated patches may have a tiny puncture point to administer
medication through, though these are more rare.
In a hospital setting, pump system IVs may be utilized to deliver medications or
to help refill a flexin's air, using similar techniques.
COMMUNITY & SOCIALIZATION
It is vital for your mental and physical wellbeing to establish a support network;
one ideally consisting of friends, roommates, communities, and potentially
support persons, if you have access to them.
i dont want to read this
Luckily, flexins tend to gather around each other in various communities, and are also
often popular among non-flexins, as well, allowing for plentiful opportunities to socialize.
It is also entirely encouraged to seek out groups such as meetups, clubs, and other
social gatherings, and/or frequent different social spaces such as bars. Having regular
places and events to go to can help tremendously, and if you're socializing, you're likely
to pick up some regular friends along the way!
no i am not. from experience
Regardless of the method, in-person contact is required to filter in shreds from
others, so while communicating with phonecalls, texts, and online messaging is
entirely fine, you MUST very regularly socialize with others physically around you
in order to stay healthy.
so
the Only kind of socializing i can Sort Of fuckin Do
is
Not Allowed. it wont work. ill die.
great
Failure to regularly socialize can result in deteriorating mental and
physical health, and can eventually lead to death in extreme cases.
Staying around others is a REQUIREMENT for your own health.
Be safe, stick together! with who, asshole
i dont even know if shes Alive.
IDENTITY
Identity can be a confusing subject for flexins, as they almost always spawn
in with some amount of inherited knowledge (and even memories) from those
that performed their spawning ritual. If you're lucky, you may end up around
some of those individuals to help explain and orient some of what you've inherited.
But if you don't have contact with them, that's alright!
It is, however, very important to form your own identity; separate from the push
and pull of all the thoughts and feelings you spawned with. It's okay to hold onto
some of it - you may find yourself with intricate knowledge on how to golf, for
instance, and may decide this is something you do enjoy once you've tried it - but
it's important to pick what YOU like, and how YOU want to define yourself, rather
than entirely latching onto someone else's identity.
Forming your own perceptions of yourself will come with time, the more you make
your own decisions and have your own feelings. Embrace being who you are,
whoever that might be!
. . .
. . .
im me.
and this
isnt real
anyway.
Your head hurts.
You turn the page.
ACTIVITIES & CAREERS
It's important to participate in activities and jobs that suit You!
im disabled.
i havent worked a job in years.
Activities/jobs that often handle sharp objects, high heat, or cold -
such as cooking, which frequently deals with all three - are likely not
a great fit; though not impossible, with the right precautions.
Likewise, any rough or dangerous activities/jobs, or ones that require
a large amount of strength - such as construction or warehouse work
- is also unlikely to be for you.
i Did work warehouse once
it wasnt that bad
i miss it now
Even more importantly, solitary activities, and especially solitary
jobs - such as being a park ranger, or hiking a mountain alone - are not
activities/jobs you should take on unless constantly accompanied by others.
On the other side, though, activities/jobs that are safe, not too physically
demanding, and involve a lot of in-person socializing - such as entertaining
or cashier work - are often perfect for flexins!
...so
the kinds of jobs that gave me breakdowns, would-
o.k. ok.
ok.
Once you're comfortable with using your paws, activities that
require more dexterity - such as painting or using a computer - are
also available to you, greatly expanding your possibilities.
need to get on that ASAP then
Ultimately, while there may be some limitations to being a
flexin (as there are with any species), there is plenty
available for you to do.
The most important part is finding something that fits
your body as well as You.
my Body doesnt fit Me.
THE PERCEPTIONS OF OTHERS
As a flexin, you WILL be socializing with others very,
very frequently. wanna bet? As such, you are,
of course, likely to run into others' perceptions,
assumptions, and misconceptions about you, as a flexin.
While flexins are most often seen in a positive light
(often described by others with words such as
entertaining, cute, i have literally never been cute in my life.
i still am not. funny and mysterious, according
to recent social studies within Idyth), there can
unfortunately be negatives, as well.
Some individuals may think of flexins as potentially easy
to take advantage of (often for their popularity), or even
"weak" or easy to "push around", given flexins' smaller
size and physical difficulties compared to many other species.
. . .
...smaller?
the nurse.
the bed.
You look at the door again.
oh
god
You're afraid to keep reading.
Even when seen positively, this isn't always a good thing,
as some others may see flexins more akin to toys than people,
or could experience positive feelings that lean more towards
exoticizing flexins rather than treating them as equals.
In times such as this, be sure of yourself and lean on a supportive
community or friend for help. Ideally, disengage with and avoid
the individual who is mistreating you.
While it is unlikely, if you feel physically threatened, find someone
you trust or notify the authorities. DO NOT try to physically engage
with an attacker more than using non-dangerous defensive items
such as mace ("pepper spray") or similar as a deterrent to get away.
it just
keeps getting. worse
It may be helpful to keep something like this on your person
in case of emergency, but they are very rarely necessary as
physical violence towards flexins is rare.
No matter what, this is unlikely to be your experience, and
you're much more likely to form strong bonds with others
through community and friendship.
no according to This im going to die
its. a dream
who cares anymore.
SUPPORT
Community and personal support is invaluable,
of course, but if you need more help, it's
always available.
If you're local to Idyth, check if there's an ICSD
branch near you!
Otherwise, you can always visit our website or
call our toll-free number for tips, resources, and
info on our community programs.
You close the pamphlet.
You slide it off the bed onto the floor.
Dread rests squarely in the throat you don't have.
But more than anything,
you're just exhausted.
You nudge the remote with your arm.
You squeak.
Part of you wants to laugh.
You can't even take Yourself seriously.
What's the point, when you're stuck like this?
oh well
You try to think of what to do with yourself, now.
It seems like the TV really is the only option.
But you'd have to decide what to even watch.
Wouldn't it just be garbled nonsense, in a dream, anyway?
You're scared to check.
You could also just go to bed.
Or
try to get up.
Maybe even
try to get out of here.
Would you even make it, with your leg?
But you don't want to just lay here
and do Nothing.


