help needed

[skinstealer]

[SUGAR_COOKIE]:

sorry, haven't responded to this thread in a long time...

i've been doing a lot of thinking on this subject. i think what i meant by soft back then was that i wanted people to see me as approachable, but with time and a lot of thinking over these messages, i've realized that i don't have to angle for that as much as i thought i would.

i still feel sharp and prickly, admittedly. i have a lot of issues talking in person, and there's still...things about my position IRL that would make a pysical "softening" impossible, nor do i think that it'd be a good idea anymore. it's too risky and i don't want to give anyone else the impression that there's anything wrong with being a weapon type, just because i have weird fucked up brain things about it. i've been told that i am callous, as much as i try to curate an image of being gentle, it always feels out of reach...

i guess, a better question would be...

how does one deal with these kinds of thoughts, considering there's nothing actually """"wrong"""" with me in the first place...