[SIDESTORY] Morbit Oneshots (18+)

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Crankshaft One Shot - Someone to Forget
CW: Heavy discussion of Sexual Harassment/Trauma

You are Dotty.

You’ve just finished prepping dinner in the other room. You've gotten into the habit of learning to cook in the past couple of months.

As much as you and your partner were in the habit of eating out regularly in the days before you moved in together, you both realize you need to eat better. 

It’s been therapeutic almost. If you weren’t so secure in your current job you’d consider taking some culinary courses. 

Normally your partners Lex and Jam pitch in but they’ve been resting in the bedroom almost entirely since coming home from work. 

You turn off the burner and check off to check on your rabbity friend. 

You knock on the bedframe door. Their ears perk for a moment only to flop back down.

Dotty: Hey, you doing okay? You it’s about time to eat and you’ve just been so quiet…

???: I’ll be out in a sec. Just.. you know.

Dotty: Something up? You sound off…

???: Little bit… It’s something I’ll get over.

Dotty: You can talk to me.

???: Maybe, it’s kinda hard right now…

Dotty: It might make you feel better…

Dotty: If you need your space though that’s fine too.

???: Honestly I don’t want to be alone right now. Like…. 

???: I’m kinda struggling to ground myself. 

Dotty: I’ve got you. Hugging okay?

???: Yeah, hugging is fine…

You give the rabbit a big hug.  

They give you a tiny smile.

???: Thank you…

???: I don’t know who I am right now and it kind of scares me a bit.

Dotty: What do you mean? 

???: Like, who am I right now?

Dotty: I mean you were Jam earlier right? But based on how you’re talking… that’s kind of hard actually. 

Dotty: Usually your face and voice give it away but right now there’s not really a clear tell. 

???: I can’t tell either. Think whatever’s hitting me right now is doing a number on both of us.

???: I got an idea what it is though.

Dotty: Tell me.

???: It’s kind of heavy, you sure?.

Dotty: Course I am, you’d do the same for me right?

???: I mean yeah..

Dotty: I got a lot of stuff going on too and you always listen. Only fair.

???: You’re 100% good with this.

Dotty: Yes! Now come on, let it all out.

???: So…

???: The summer after graduating was kinda hard if I’m honest. We met up once and then after that everyone focused on future plans. Didn’t have the best grades and I wasn’t up to join the navy like a lot of folks in my situation did you know?

Dotty: Right, you talked about this before.

???: There was one guy who stuck around though. We knew each other but didn’t really bond much until those few months where I really needed a friend more than anything.

???: And well… 

???: In hindsight, there were a lot of red flags. 

???: He was a real horny on main type to the point that his folks were pretty numb to it. 

???: Dude drew piles of stuff and just covered his bedroom walls in it. Really into military stuff in more than one way.

???: Would’ve probably gotten gross around you honestly….

Dotty: Yeah…I mean I would’ve just punched him if he started shit.

???: Please! Just.. nasty dude. He really kept trying to push a lot of it my way and sorta fished for responses? His art style was pretty gross too honestly. Make it obvious what he was into and a lot of it just put me the fuck off. 

Dotty: Yeah?

???: Lot of kinda mean stuff, really destructive and degrading. I dunno.

???: For a long time being around him made me like… actively hate the idea of having any feelings like that. Didn’t even want to be attracted to a person after a point.

???: We had plenty of fun outings at first but a lot of the time I felt embarrassed you know?

???: But I really didn’t want to be on my own…

???: At the time I was big into writing for fun, and one day he found out.

???: Got really insistent that we should write together. He got really creepy about it though. 

???: Had this really jingoistic vibe that I could never get behind. Anything put me off of him before was sort of just elevated.

???: Started avoiding talking to him online after that if I could. Kinda had a vampire effect though.

Dotty: You let him through the door and he goes for your neck.

???: Yeah. Not in a sexy way though. Like…

Dotty: Like?

???: Like… god he got weird about a bunch of things. Dragged me into all sorts of situations where he’d make an ass of himself. Got me into trouble with my folks a few times. 

???: Would regularly send me some of his kink art even though I made it clear I wasn’t into it. Was always hoping that he’d be able to get me into it. 

Dotty: You told him to stop?

???: Mm.. didn’t really do much honestly. 

???: Should’ve never put up with as much as I did.

???: Last straw was the last time we met in person. Got weirdly handsy that day, really wanted to test his luck.

???: Decked him hard enough that his face gushed with blood but..

???: I dunno, dude was obviously trouble and I should've bailed so much earlier.

Dotty: I mean how old were you at the time?

???: 17. We both were and I guess I shouldn’t be surprised or blame myself for not doing more but… I dunno.

???: Anyway I kept quiet about it until one day my mom started snooping through my computer. Screamed her ass off at me when she went through my messages. 

???: Never had seen her that pissed before. Thought my life was over for a sec honestly.

???: His parents got involved, turned into a big shitstorm. 

???: He got a slap on the wrist while I just had to live with knowing they thought I was some kind of weird pervert.

???: I dunno….

Dotty: You got in trouble over his shit?

???: I mean… yeah. She read it all outloud to my dad too and everything. 

???: Fucking winced the entire time. Hearing my mom read the phrase “fuck like bunnies” outloud made me want to just die on the spot.

???: Legit was ready to just fall over. Cried a lot…

You give your partner a squeeze. They nuzzle up.

???: I think both of us just… remember that vividly. After that became super sex repulsed for a long time. Thought of it made all that guilt and shame just flood back.

???: Makes me feel sick if I think about it too much.

???: Anyway I made the stupid mistake of looking through old emails and seeing that again by accident.

Dotty: That’s not your fault.

???: Maybe not but… I dunno.

???: It’s been years. He’s probably more than moved on and I’m still feeling the effects of that.

???: Both of us are. 

???:Hate that. Wish I could just beat his ass into the ground.

???: Hope he just thinks of me every once in a while and hyperventilates. 

???: Chokes on his food remembering me…

???: It’s petty I guess but… I dunno.

???: I hate the idea that he got it easy and I’m still dealing.

Dotty: I mean I’d kick his shit in. 

Dotty: You ever see him on the street and his ass is grass. 

???: Put him in a box. 

Dotty: Ship him off. 

???: Hehe… 

Dotty: Got you to smile! 

???: Yeah, you did. 

Dotty: Seriously though, point him out and he’s dead.

Dotty: Like no joke, I’d break that dude like a pretzel. 

???: You’d get in trouble.

Dotty: Who cares, fuck that guy. I don’t want you to ever feel unsafe like that ever again. Either of you. 

???: You’re the best, you know that?

Dotty: Aww, I mean… I’m trying.

???: You are! I want you to know that. 

???: Nobody else would ever do a thing like that for me. 

Dotty: I know you’d do the same thing.

???: Yeah but… you know.

Dotty: Mm?

???: You’re buff as hell, couldn’t really do some of the things you can.

Dotty: I always got your back…

???: I need that, knowing I’m safe means a lot. I’m kind of a dumbass so-

Dotty: You’re not a dumbass!  You can’t blame all that on yourself.

Dotty: And I’m glad you can talk to me about something like this you know? 

Dotty: Seriously, I know it’s hard. It’s really fucking hard.. You took a big step by letting it out you know?

???: It was… but having you listen made it easier.

???: Don’t know how long I’ve been keeping that to myself but..

???: I love you. I’m glad I don’t have to anymore

Dotty: Love you too…

???: I’ll be out for dinner just.. Hold me a little longer?

???: Not ready to let go just yet.

Dotty: Go for it.

Dotty: Hold on as long as you need to.